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VOLUME FIVE
Diary
of a Traveling Preacher, volume 5 - Chapter 6 "
Now There is Hope"
Mlawa, Poland, June 21 to July 07, 2003
Our last festival of the
spring tour was in Mlawa. The newspaper that had slandered us was
also in Mlawa, so I was a bit nervous as we drove in to the town
with a busload of 60 devotees for the first Harinam. The newspaper
had printed our rebuttal, of course, but people in general are more
inclined to bad news than good, so I feared that the people of Mlawa
might be indignant.
We arrived in town as thousands of people
began a busy morning shopping in an outdoor market near the center
of the city. Fruit and vegetable stands and stalls selling varieties
of clothing, shoes, and other commodities packed the area, with
crowds milling through the small lanes. The market was open only
half a day, and I wanted to give out as many invitations as
possible, so I had some extra devotees come, and I asked the kirtan
party to move at a quick pace through the market and surrounding
streets. Sri Prahlad led a powerful kirtan with his accordion as the
devotees danced in ecstasy. Whatever doubts or suspicions people may
have had were quickly dissipated in the sunshine of the holy names.
As people smiled and waved we practically flew through the market,
distributing a record 6,000 invitations in 90 minutes.
I woke
up the next morning anticipating a big crowd at the festival, only
to be disappointed by dark clouds on the horizon. As the rumbling
clouds headed south towards Mlawa, I offered them my respects,
remembering Lord Krsna's instructions to the Pandavas in
Mahabharata:
During the battle of Kuruksetra, Aswattama
launched a brahmastra weapon at the Pandavas. So powerful was the
weapon that even the Pandavas could not destroy or counteract it.
Being fully surrendered devotees, they immediately turned to Krsna
for shelter. The Lord told them that when opposition is stronger
than oneself, it is best avoided. He told them to take off their
armor, lay down their weapons, and offer obeisances to the
brahmastra. If they did so, Krsna said, they would render the
brahmastra powerless. As the weapon raced towards them, all the
Pandavas except Bhima took off their armor and laid down their bows
and arrows. Bhima stood defiant. Just as the brahmastra was about to
hit them, the other Pandavas forcibly took off Bhima's armor and
threw his weapons to the side. Then all of them bowed to the
brahmastra as it passed harmlessly overhead.
My anxiety was
quickly forgotten when I arrived at the festival site. I was happy
to see that the authorities had given us the street next to the town
hall and blocked it off to traffic. The tent crew had spent all
morning setting up on the prestigious spot, but just as people began
entering at 5 pm, my worst fears came true, and the rain started
pouring down. Some people took shelter of the tents, but many simply
turned around and went home.
"So much for the potency of my
obeisances!" I said to myself. The rest of the day it alternately
rained and held back. Nevertheless, 400 or 500 determined people
attended.
Among them was a girl who approached Jayatam das
and me as I was signing books at the book table. She looked me over
for a moment. "Yes," she said, "it's you. Can I show you something?"
"Of course," I replied, intrigued by her enthusiasm. She opened her
wallet and pulled out a photo of her family and me posing next to
our festival stage. "It was taken in Kolobrzeg three years ago," she
said. "I always remember that festival. It was one of the best days
of my life." She reached in her bag and took out the Science of
Self-realization and Srila Prabhupada Lilamrta in Polish. "I bought
these two books at that time," she said, "but I want to return them
now." I was surprised. "But why?" I asked. "I just can't understand
them," she replied. "I've tried, but I'm not very intelligent. I
have concluded that there's no hope. I'll never understand
God." I had things to attend to, so I introduced her to
Vara-nayaka das. "Try to convince her to keep the books," I told
him. When I saw Vara-nayaka later, he told me the girl was going to
think it over and come back the next day.
As the festival
closed that night, only a few people were still there. As rain
poured down during the last kirtan I noticed a few drunks, a social
worker with some retarded children, and several deaf people standing
motionless in front of the stage. This was not the crowd I had
expected. The next day it rained even harder, but whenever there was
a break in the weather, people would appear from the nearby
apartment buildings and run over to the festival. Gradually the
weather began to change and eventually cleared completely, so by 8
pm we had a normal crowd. They made up for lost time by hurriedly
passing through the exhibits and buying books and gifts.
The
restaurant sold out in no time. But with only two hours left, I was
disappointed. The festival simply wasn't the success I felt it could
have been had it not been rained on. The only consolation came
when I went onstage to lead the final kirtan. I was amazed to see
that the crowd was one of the largest of the spring
tour.
They applauded when a devotee came forward and gave me
a huge garland of marigolds reaching down to my ankles. As evening
set in and the bright streetlights illuminated the area, I started a
kirtan and was happy to see many people from the previous day,
including the drunks, the deaf people, and the retarded children. I
was feeling exhausted, so after a few minutes I called Sri Prahlad
to take over the kirtan. True to form, he soon had a large crowd
dancing blissfully.
The deaf people, who had stood motionless
in front of the stage the night before, began dancing wildly.
Because they couldn't hear the rhythm, their dancing wasn't in time
with everyone else's, but that didn't hold them back. Jumping and
twirling around with big smiles, they encouraged one another in sign
language.
On the other side of the stage I noticed that the
drunks (who were just as intoxicated as the night before) were
dancing around in a circle. Despite their stupor, they maintained
their balance. "Hare Krsna!" they screamed. "Hare Krsna! Hare
Krsna!"
Suddenly, one of the retarded boys jumped up and
started dancing. At first the crowd was a little repulsed by his
uncoordinated moves, but his enthusiasm was infectious, and soon
much of the crowd began to dance.
I called Jayatam over.
"Film the kirtan," I told him.
He slowly panned the camera
across the crowd. "No!" I yelled. "Film the deaf people and the
drunkards! Look how they're relishing the holy names!" Suddenly
Jayatam's eyes opened wide. "Srila Gurudeva!" he shouted. "Look!
There's the girl who showed you the picture! Look how she's
dancing!"
About an hour later, Sri Prahlad wound up the
kirtan. For a moment the people stood silent and motionless, trying
to fathom what had just happened. It had been their first kirtan,
and many seemed overwhelmed.
We often end a festival by
honoring our youngest guests for their enthusiasm in kirtan, so I
came to the front of the stage and chose five of the best dancers
from among the children. I asked them to join me onstage. As five
little girls came forward, I gave them each a silk sari from our
spiritual fashion booth. The crowd went wild. As I was making the
presentation, I glanced out of the corner of my eye and saw the
retarded boy who had enlivened the crowd with his dancing. I called
a devotee over and asked him to bring the boy onto the stage. The
boy came and stood next to me, smiling from ear to ear. I put my arm
around him and announced to the crowd that we wanted to give him
special recognition. I took off my long marigold garland and
carefully put it around his neck, and the crowd broke into
thunderous applause.
I turned to say a final goodbye to the
people, but they wouldn't stop clapping, so I smiled and waved
goodbye. When I came down from the stage, Vara-nayaka was waiting
for me. "Srila Gurudeva," he said, "do you remember the girl who
wanted to return the books?" "Yes," I replied, "I saw her dancing in
the kirtan." "That's right," said Vara-nayaka. "She told me that
after that kirtan she feels there is hope for her now, and she's
decided to keep the books."
"Such is the power of the holy
names," I thought and headed back to my car. I walked slowly,
savoring the last minutes of the spring tour. I saw the deaf people
waving to me from the other side of the road, and I waved back. A
few steps further, the group of drunks approached me and took turns
shaking my hand. Then, just as I was getting into my car, the
retarded boy came running up to give me a big hug. As I returned his
tight embrace, I said a little prayer and asked Krsna to continue to
give him mercy.
And why wouldn't He? That night I had seen
with my own eyes that Lord Caitanya makes no distinction between the
sinner and the saint, the gentle and the ruffian, the scholar and
the fool. A disappointing festival had suddenly become one the best
of the season, and my heart was completely satisfied.
tri
bhuvana kamaniye gaura candre vatirne patita yavana murkhah
sarvatha sphotayantah iha jagati samasta nama
sankirtanarta vayam api ca krtarthah krsna namasrayad
bhoh
"When Lord Gauracandra, the most attractive personality
within the three worlds advented in this universe, all the fallen
souls, including the lowborn and foolish, began to wave their arms
in the air excited by the congregational chanting of the holy names.
We also were completely fulfilled because of our taking shelter of
the names of Krsna. O my Lord!"
[Sri Sarvabhauma Bhattacarya:
Sri Gauranga-mahima, Susloka-Satakam, Text 44]
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